here's a little bit about me. i love to sing, read, write, and sometimes photography is something i'll do. i have depression and occasionally (though i'm trying to stop) self-harm. i have great friends and family and they all love me. i put my heart out and get hurt very easily. i'm slow to trust, but once i do i give you my all. break that trust and you're out. i fall hard and fast and it takes me a while to even forget about someone i've fallen for.
last thing, do not under any circumstance mention any of the contents of this blog outside of tumblr or in public. it's extremely private. so thanks.
It's All Falling Together Now
What if Mrs. Everdeen had an afair with Mr. Mellark, and Prim is actually Peeta’s half-sister? And that’s why he (Mr. Mellark) was going to keep her stomach full? And that’s why Mrs. Mellark hates Katniss so much. And Mrs. Everdeen never told her husband the truth, and that’s why she get so depressed after he died. And that’s why she keeps running away.
I think you just broke Suzanne Collins.
I think you just broke the fandom
Good. First the fandom. Then the world.
That kind of make sence, ‘cause that’s why Prim is blond and doesn’t have the miner-look like Katniss and Gale. OMG
(via outshine-your-enemies)
so this summer, i’m gonna change. i’m dropping the junk food, quitting with the sodas, i’m gonna start running, working out, tanning (naturally so it’s not gonna make me die or into an oompa loompa), and i’m getting my natural hair color back. i’m gonna do this not because of boys or vanity. i’m doing this to feel good. even if you have an itty bitty body, it doesn’t mean you don’t feel healthy.
how my mother works
me: mom i got all A's
mom:
me: mom i cleaned the whole house
mom:
me: mom i don't do drugs and i'm not pregnant
mom:
mom: is this your cup on the table?
me: yes
mom: you never do anything right i do for you all day long and you do nothing for me but stress me out you are so out of control you are grounded if you think you had no life before you just wait i cant believe you treat your own mother this way get out of my sight
i was sitting at my Lit class end of year party and people were talking about Tumblr and one girl said she wants to follow everyone and I said mine was kinda private so it’s harder to find. Then this one girl who’s been in my class for all 3 years so far but I’m not really friend with looks at me and says “Isn’t yours I Don’t Wanna Miss a Thing?” and it got kinda quiet and I just stared and asked how in the heck does she know that? (she doesn’t follow me) and then she just looked at me and said oh I saw your picture on someone else’s Tumblr and I checked yours out. I don’t know if anyone else thinks that’s creepy but I do. now I’m scared they’re all gonna follow me and ugh I don’t like my friends knowing my actual feelings!!!
1 - Who was the last person you texted?
2 - When is your birthday?
3 - Who do you want to be with right now?
4 - What sports do you play?
5 - Who is the first person in your contacts?
6 - What is your favorite song as of the moment?
7 - What chocolate is your favorite?
8 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have?
9 - Why did you create a Tumblr account?
10 - Who is your favorite blogger?
11 - Where do you want to be right now?
12 - What do you want to be in the future?
13 - When was the last time you cried? Why?
14 - If you were given a chance, would you like to have a different life?
15 - What was the best thing you were given?
16 - Who was the last person who called you?
17 - Who is your bestfriend?
18 - What is your biggest regret?
19 - What is your favorite dish?
20 - What kind of music do you listen to?
21 - Who was the last person you hugged?
22 -Do you have troubles sleeping at night?
23 - Who do you spend crazy moments with?
24 - From whom was the last text message you received?
25 - Are you over your past?
26 - Do you like someone as of the moment?
27 - Do you have any phobias?
28 - Did you try to change for a person?
29 - What would you want to say to your latest ex-boyfriend/ex-girlfriend?
30 - How long is your longest relationship?
31 - What do you prefer, jeans or skirt?
32 - Are you in a good or bad mood?
33 -Would you go back to your previous relationship?
34 - Name someone you can’t live without.
35 - Describe your dream date.
36 - Describe your dream wedding.
37 - How many roses did you receive last Valentine’s?
38 - Are you a crybaby?
39 - Can you do something stupid for someone else?
40 - Do you regret your past?
41 - Do people praise you for your looks?
42 - Did you fall for someone you shouldn’t?
43 - Have you ever done something bad but you don’t regret?
44 - Have you ever cried over someone?
45 - Do you have a grudge against anyone?
46 - If you can change anything about yourself, what is it?
47 - Do you love someone as of the moment?
48 - Have you ever thought of killing yourself?
49 - Do you have issues with somebody in your school?
50 - Are you a KPOP fan?
51 - Can you live without internet?
52 - What’s the song that remind you of your special someone?
53 - Do you study hard?
54 - Are you good at holding back your tears?
55 - Did you have an accident last year?
56 - Are you a crybaby?
57 - Have you ever experienced being hysterical?
58 - Have you ever thought of killing someone?
59 - Have you ever been jealous?
60 - What are you thinking right now?
61 - What kind of person are you?
62 - Do you have any memories you want to erase?
63 - Are you broken-hearted?
64 - Have you been hurt so bad that you can’t find words to explain how you feel?
65 - Did you ever badmouth someone?
66 - Have you ever had an argument with someone?
67 - Do you have trust issues?
68 - Who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “love”?
69 - Do you think all the pain is worth it?
70 - Who do you want to marry?
71 - Name one of your ex-boyfriends/ex-girlfriends.
72 - What should you be doing right now?
73 - Have you found your true love?
74 - Did you ever feel like you’re not good enough?
75 - Do you believe that first true love never dies?
76 - Do you believe in the phrase “If it’s meant to be, it will be”?
77 - Do you believe in destiny?
78 - How do you look right now?
79 - Have you ever thought “I already found my soulmate”?
ASK BOX PLEASE.
(via glassjaw-boxer)
i hate the nights when my depression comes back in a wave so crippling it’s like it’s making up for the days and moments when i’m happy. do i really have to feel this guilty for being happy?
”THROUGH A RAPIST’S EYES” (PLS TAKE TIME TO READ THIS. it may save a life.) Reblog this!
It seems that alot of attackers use some tactic to get away with violence. Not many people know how to take care of themselves when faced with such a
situation. Everyone should read this especially each n every girl in this world. THOUGHT THIS WAS GOOD INFO TO PASS ALONG…
FYI - Through a rapist’s eyes! A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:
1] The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle.
They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun! , braid, or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.
2] The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who’s clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.
3] They also look for women using their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.
4] The number one place women are abducted from / attacked at is grocery store parking lots.
5] Number two is office parking lots/garages.
6] Number three is public restrooms.
7] The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don’t have to worry about getting caught.
8] If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn’t worth it because it will be time-consuming.
9] These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas,or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
10] Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you’re not worth it.
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POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:
1] If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk:
can’t believe it is so cold out here, we’re in for a bad winter. Now that you’ve seen their faces and could identify them in a line- up, you lose appeal as a target.
2] If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell Stop or Stay back! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they’d leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would
not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.
3] If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yelling I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.
4] If someone grabs you, you can’t beat them with strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and
armpit or in the upper inner thigh - HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it really hurts.
5] After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy’s parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you’ll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our
instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he’s out of there.
6] When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using
much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.
7] Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don’t dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel
little silly at the time, but you’d feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.
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FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL ….
I know you are smart enough to know these pointers but there will be some, where you will go “hmm I must remember that” After reading forward it to someone you care about, never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.
1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do it.
2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans : if a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you…. chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or
purse than you and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!
3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car: Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won’t see you but everybody else will. This has saved lives.
4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping,eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc. DON’T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side,put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU CLOSE the DOORS , LEAVE.
5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
a. Be aware: look around your car as someone may be
hiding at the passenger side , peek into your car, inside the passenger side floor, and in the back seat. ( DO THIS TOO BEFORE RIDING A TAXI CAB) .
b. If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
c. Look at the car parked on the driver’s side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)
6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).
7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!
8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked “for help” into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.
Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it and it’s better safe than sorry.
DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT NOT REBLOGGING THIS! IT COULD ACTUALLY SAVE A LIFE.
(Source: itssofluffy-im-gonna-die, via outshine-your-enemies)


